I first joined Twitter in 2010, just to follow the norm and as the typical budak-baru-nak-up kid at that time, I tweeted every single day about every single thing I do and every single thing I felt. I also set my Twitter public so that everyone could easily follow me and I'll gain more and more followers. It's like your Twitter was better off having more followers. So lame.
In addition to having nonsense contents on my Twitter, I cursed a lot. Really a lot of cursing. It's like I could die if I didn't put a curse word in my tweet. I also cursed everyone I dislike on Twitter, publicly even when that person was following me. This, I myself was confused. Why did I dumbly curse someone who followed me, like I purposely wanted him/her to know that I cursed him/her? Then why didn't I just cursed on his/her face instead?
My relationship with a few friends went bad because of my tweets, I even ended some friendships I had (we are in good terms now, don't worry). I guess, not regretting with what happened with my friends, or ex-friends at that time, I also did something terrible. Remember this post(click)? Welp, that past I talked about got something to do with what I tweeted.
Only then I realized how immature, irresponsible I was on Twitter and how dangerous Twitter is if you take tweeting lightly by not care how heavy your words could affect others or worse, you yourself. I changed, or at least I'm still trying, to think rationally and read my tweet multiple times before I hit the tweet button, to be careful and be kind of my words, to be less tweeting.
Despite everything happened, I didn't deactivate my Twitter account, I just don't want to, tehee. But since then I set a new motive of having a Twitter account, purely to know about current news, to get motivated by positive tweets or to know some tips by thread tweets and a bit, of course, for my own entertainment. That's why I decided to make my Twitter account private and I ended up removing some followers, especially the ones who were complete strangers.
So with new people coming into my life and these people, especially the ones who discovered my Twitter ID requested to be my followers but I rejected you anyway, I want to sincerely apologize. It's just that I won't ever be ready to open up to you as we're not that close. I'm afraid of your changing perception of me once you know more about me. That's how different I am on Twitter, I guess, and that's why I don't put my Twitter ID on any of my social media accounts.
And to you guys who had the same Twitter episode as me, it's better to deactivate your account if you couldn't handle the heaviness of your words but if you couldn't live without it like me, let's strive to be better at choosing what to tweet. Please pray for me, pray for us.
Positive vibes only,
Lya.
